When speaking to yourself, it’s crucial to engage in an honest conversation.
Self-to self, I often wonder or question my identity? Which is such a crazy thing because they are days that I tell myself, “I am beautiful, I am strong, I matter, and I am important.” But there are days when I think I am a failure. Today is one of those days. I don’t know what I am doing in my life. My life has always been planned out. I’ve always had every summer, and every semester planned out, up until now. Initially, I planned to go back to school after undergrad. But now I don’t know. Part of me feels like I should go after my dreams little by little. But the other part of me feels like I am getting older, and I need to settle down and focus on one thing. So I guess I’m going through a crisis.
I’ve always believed that we, as people are talented beyond measures. So I’ve never seen a problem with having several dreams. But now at 23, I feel like I’m running out of time. Most of my relatives at my age had a family and were either married or in a serious relationship. Also, at my age, my relatives were either in their professional field of interest or were working towards their aspirations. I don’t think I will be getting married in my 20s, and I know what I love and what I want to do. But I’ve never had an internship. I’ve applied to jobs in my field, and have been turned down. So what do I do?
What if I want to act, write, build up my business, and then go to law school? Is desiring to do more than one thing acceptable in today’s society. I don’t know, but I guess I have to follow my heart.
To my viewers: Follow your heart. Do what you love and be unapologetic about it. There is nothing that you can not do.